despair
i suppose i will remain hidden. i will stay as low to the ground as possible, for fear i cannot exist in this nation. i will suffer the debts and keep my mouth shut. i will throw on my binder and pretend i am just an "ugly girl". i will be quiet for fear of being denied my life. i will consume birth control like candy because i won't be able to have a choice as to what i can do about it. and god forbid i did bring a child into this place that is a girl. my fear and i will cuddle up indefinitely, not just for the next four years. there will be more after this, rest assured.