headache
i don't have it in me today. it doesn't matter if i get decent sleep or not, it's never actually decent. i'm exhausted no matter what. i can't do anything. i can hardly bring myself to wake up, let alone work or clean or take care of myself. i don't even remember the last time i really cooked for B and i.
it's obvious i'm depressed. i'm not unaware of that. but what can i do? should i up my meds? i have my doubts that it will help. maybe i need to get them changed entirely.
i want to feel normal. not my normal, but the normal that everyone else feels when they get rest, have to work, have to shower, have to take care of their house. the kind of normal where they can just do those things, no real hesitation. i just want that so badly.